Becoming a mother...whether you are ready for it or not...is a big step towards being able to handle a lot of responsibility and involves total commitment. The moment I saw my first child I was overcome with tears. I had been carrying this precious life in me for nine months and was holding a perfect human...10 fingers, 10 toes and a cute button nose. My daughter had a full head of hair and the nurses would "fix it up fancy" every chance they got! I was so nervous handling my new baby girl. I was so afraid that I was going to drop her or hurt her somehow...she seemed so small and fragile.
When my son was born 4 years later I was still nervous when I held him but not as much as I was with my daughter. By now I was a pro at handling a baby. I was more worried about both children's future and if I would be a good mother to them both. I was so afraid of messing things up and if I did mess them up, not being able to fix them.
The responsibility that comes with having a children was very overwhelming at times. However, I feel I did a good job. I learned to give my love to another human being, unconditionally, which at first I did not think was possible. I also learned how to protect my children, like a mother lion watching her cubs. Yes, I messed up a lot BUT things always seem to smooth out.
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