Take Me As I Am

I might not be someone's first choice, but I am a great choice.

I may not be rich, but I am valuable.

I don't pretend to be someone I'm not because I'm good at being me.

I might not be proud of some of the things I've done in the past, but I am proud of who I am today.

I may not be perfect but I don't need to be.

Take me as I am, or watch me as I walk away!!

Valentine's Day Sucks

I really do not like Valentine's Day. I think it is a bullshit holiday. Every store you go to displays Valentine related stuff in your face. Advertisements, cards, treats, gifts and more offer promises of everlasting love.

I think my dislike for Valentine’s Day began many, many years ago in Elementary School. Each year the teacher would force all students to bring in a decorated shoe box for our Valentine’s Day party. Students would be given a list of names of every student in their class and were expected to make a Valentine to give to each one on the list. I would work hours to pick out the perfect little valentine card for each person. I was always so excited to give them out as school…only to be disappointed at peoples comments about my cards. Kids can say some really mean and hateful things. While I don’t remember the exact words, I do remember how much they hurt and how totally alone I always felt.

My dislike for Valentine's Day has gotten worse through the years thanks to worthless boyfriends and husbands.  Maybe someday this stupid holiday will be wiped off the calendar.

You're Still A Cheater

Words are just words; actions truly do speak louder than words.  Lack of action(s) speak even louder.

Nothing either of us says will change the facts.

You chose to cheat and you continue to choose to cheat.  There are no excuses.

You can justify it all your want but the bottom line is you made the selfish decision to cheat…again.

How is it so hard to be faithful?  I don’t find it hard at all but you seem to have huge issues with it. You have to make a conscious effort to hurt or not hurt someone you claim to love.  No matter how much pain is endured, one has to push through it in order to move forward…in any relationship.

Sure, it is easy to be a cheater, but what good is that?  It is the cowardly, selfish, easy way out.

Why am I the one that has to change (again) in order for us to be happy?

 When are you going to change?

When are you going to stop lying and stop cheating?

The only change I have seen you make, it that you have gotten sneakier?

Why does all the effort fall on me?

How can we fix us if I am the only one working on us?

I guarantee you are still in contact with her.  You don’t know how to walk away…or maybe you just don’t want to walk away.  And if you ever do walk away, how long before it happens again?

Cheaters are Selfish

Cheating is the most selfish thing a person can do in a relationship!

If you are not happy with the person you are with then end it.

It’s that simple!


More men should read this quote!

"Someday you’ll miss her like she missed you. Someday you’ll need her like she needed you. Someday you’ll love her and she won’t love you." – Lamon Jordan

Death Really Scares Me

The older I get the more panicked I get.  I have panic attacks thinking about death....not fun at all.
I am 44 and I keep thinking my life is at least half over.  I don't want to die.  I don't want to ever leave my family, friends, pets, etc.  BUT I know the end will come.

My chest hurts most of the time now because I obsess over death.I panic to the point of not being able to move, not able to breathe, my head spins, my chest pounds.  I feel like the end is so near and it freaks me out.During the panic attacks I can picture my family and friends after I am gone.  I can picture leaving them.  I picture nothingness.  One minute here and the next minute nothing.

This happened to me after my parents passed away also...and I went through therapy.  I am thinking I need to go back.

Death is nothing like movies.  Once you are dead....you are dead.  There is no coming back, there is just nothing

I want o live forever!  I know I cant so I will settle for being the oldest person ever....110 or so.

I Am Tired

I am tired of loving for and caring for people that do nothing but dump on me.
I am tired of being lied to.
I am tired of being cheated on.
I am tired of being in a relationship that has no meaning.
I am tired of being a nobody.
I am tired of always giving and getting nothing in return.
I am tired of always being the nice person and always giving in to what other people want.
I am tired of always listening to everyone but no one listens to me.
I am tired of not being able to do anything right.
I am tired of being a horrible housekeeper.
I am tired of being fat and ugly.
I am tired of not being loved.
I am tired of..no matter what I say, life will go on as usual with me looking like an idiot.
I am tired of people walking over me.

Looking Out Into the World

Looking Out Into The World…
I see a past of longing, needing, wanting

Looking Out Into The World…
I see the present full of pain, heartache and lies.

Looking Out Into The World…
I see a future of uncertainty.

Revenge Towards the Ex

Everything you say your ex wife did to you is the exact things you are doing to me?

If you are trying to get revenge, you are doing it to the wrong person.

Move On

If you want to be with some one else then cut off the relationship you are in and move on.

You obviously are not happy where you are or you would not be looking elsewhere.


Telling someone they "would have a chance if you weren't taken" is very hurtful.  And in my eyes, that is still cheating.


A poem I wrote on July 22, 2005

Love comes and love goes.
Love blossoms and love grows.

Love runs deep and love runs long.
Love makes you feel as if you belong.

Love can be intimate and sweet.
Love can sweep you off your feet.

Love can start in the blink of an eye
Love can end with a harsh goodbye.

Fake People

Fake people are only nice when it's convenient for them and they usually have a hidden agenda.

Genuinely nice people go out of their way to help others and they have an honest heart.

Stick with the ones who never let you down and keep their promises. You can't fake that.


Be Who You Are

Be who you are and say what you feel
because those who mind don't matter
and those who matter don't mind.
- Dr. Seuss

Dream, Go, Be.

Dream what you want to dream,
Go where you want to go.
Be what you want to be.

You have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.


You will end up very disappointed if you think people will do for you as you do for them.

Not everyone has the same heart as you.

I Want...

I want...

Him to not cheat on me.
Him to not lie to me.
Him to love me.
Him to want me.
Him to need me.

Sadly, I know I will never get what I want.

Stop Playing Games

I am not stupid.  I know what is going on.
You need to make a choice.
If you are leaving, then go.
Stop playing games.

Once A Cheater...

Once a Cheater,
Always a cheater.

You lie and say you will change.
The only change you make is that you get sneakier.
You learn to hide your cheating ways better.

Hide it all your want,
the truth always comes out.

Forgive Others

Forgive people in your life, even those who are not sorry for their actions.

 Holding on to anger only hurts you, not them.